You always said…

…a lot of things that I used to argue with. Hell, I still do even though you’re no longer around. But the one thing that always got stuck is when you’d say “SheBear, I love you – let the world love you, too, stop hiding from it”. Its probably the only thing you and my mom would’ve ever agreed on.

Something else you’d lecture me about was to challenge myself, test my fear, test my emotions, follow my heart. At the time I argued that I did do that, but in retrospect, I never did. Even now I battle.

Even now, I’m afraid to let people in.
Even now, I’m afraid of being afraid.
Even now, I’m afraid of being emotional.

Even now, when I challenge myself I never forget to stop and thank you.

But mostly, even now, I miss you and wish that you were still here to see me finally listening.

4 comments

  1. Wenchy says:

    I feel that way about somebody, but slightly different… except he is very dead… I wish he could have seen me live.

  2. Shebee says:

    I know exactly what you’re saying. Andrew’s been dead for two years now. This was about him šŸ™‚

    It’s amazing how wise people sound long after we can tell them.

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