For Spider.

I wrote this months ago.  I’ve never been brave enough to post it, aside from showing it to SomeoneElse, who sort of influenced me in writing these feelings down.  I’ll never send it to the one who it was meant for.  I’m terrified he reads it, I’m terrified even more that he’ll listen.  After all this time, he’s still so prominent in my life.

It’s not that I don’t want you to be a part of my life anymore. It’s not that I don’t love you anymore, I always will. I just don’t know how to share you. In order for me to remain sane, I have to let you go. In order for me to remain sane, you need to let me move on. I love you, but now I crave release:

You said
It’ll be alright
I say

Don’t cry
Don’t shed a tear
But when you wake up
I’ll can’t still be here
When you wake up
You’ll have to battle your fears
So that I can…

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can’t take it anymore
I’ve cried my eyes out
And now I face the years
The way you loved me
Took away all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
The heartache that life can give you
I just wish of it I was free
But now I’ll…

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can’t take it anymore
I’ve cried my eyes out
And now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Be happy
It’s all I want
Be true to yourself
It’s all I want
Be safe now
It’s all I want
Be loved now
It’s all I want

Besides for wanting you.